spelled it out in a song

“No Wonder” - 1/8/12

He was more charming than a prince
Radiant smile and the softest touch
She had olive skin so sweet
Melted like caramel on his tongue
It’s no wonder they found each other

but…

She needs the words in her blood
He feels the rhythm in his fingers
She was a blank slate with a firm kiss
He had a pair of wandering hands
And a never-ending list

They stick to what they’re good at
They stick to what they’re good at

She likes to speak in a whisper
And he was more than outspoken
Hid behind her big brown eyes
Stunning enough for him to get lost in
It’s no wonder they found each other

but…

He found himself so very funny
And she thought it was condescending
He led her on for at least a year
She just waited and waited
Losing him was her worst fear

They stick to what they’re good at
They stick to what they’re good at

People see them fight in smoky rooms
They all think they know the truth
But their souls just fit together
They were meant for each other
She fits him just like a glove
It’s no wonder they fell in love

They stick to what they’re good at
They stick to what they’re good at

freight train


you could say we were delicately dancing
along the train tracks from my house to yours
four hundred miles of steel tearing us apart
and pulling us together just like before

then your words hit me like a freight train, freight train
spilled your secrets at 70 miles an hour
i’ve never been so scared to say your name
…hit me like a freight train

you did say we would stay the same
said things about loss, value, and truth
friends, romance, and time spent apart
i clearly see everything’s changed

when your words hit me like a freight train, freight train
spilled your secrets at 70 miles an hour
i’ve never been so scared to say your name
…hit me like a freight train

and in twenty-four minutes
that could’ve been hours
i remembered four months
that should’ve been ours

then your words hit me like a freight train, freight train
spilled your secrets at 70 miles an hour
i’ve never been so scared to say your name
…hit me like a freight train

“lonely people”

you had me right where you wanted me
with temptation we couldn’t resist
you asked if i was nervous,
put your hand on my hip
i smiled as i politely declined
and a bit of ice shot down my spine

and i don’t know what to tell people about me and you
we’re just doing what two lonely people do
i’ll hold onto you ‘till the minute we’re through

you had your hands in my hair,
caught up in the rhythm of our breath
you stopped to stare as i undress
touched me in a way i’ll never forget
but don’t trust him, no don’t love him
don’t risk it, don’t you dare let him in 

and i don’t know what to tell people about me and you
we’re just doing what two lonely people do
i’ll hold onto you ‘till the moment we’re through

i’d give it all up for you
i don’t have any secrets left
no one knows the state we’re in
they all tell me not to get attached
but they don’t know you had me
when your lips first touched my skin

one day we’ll tell them all the story of me and you
moved in a way that two lonely people do
and how i fell in love and you still don’t have a clue 

singin’ in the sand - 2/22/11

You seem so perfect
Two-thousand miles away
You’re the missing piece
To what I want to complete

Do you think we stand a chance?
I swear I’m worth it
All the things I can give you
You don’t know the things I can do

Timing’s a little off
Three years can get in the way
Soon we’ll both be older
Maybe I’ll see you around

Some think we’ve got a chance 
They say you’re worth this
I’m willing to try it for you
Show me all that you can do

You’re singin’ in the sand
I’m runnin’ in the street
You don’t know who you are yet
I’m out lookin’ for the next step
There’s a time we’ll finally meet
And I hope that you’ll see..

We really got a chance
I know you’re worth this
I’ll save some time for you
Promise me you won’t move 

new orleans

i should’ve taken a risk
but i decided to wait
now there’s a chance i didn’t take
down in new orleans

twelve hours of road
from your door to mine
i could count every mile
if you’d give me the time

i’m fighting this all on my own
every night i hope you’ll come home
i miss you more than you’ll ever know

do you think of me
as you look at the stars
dwell on your future
and question who you are

i was so scared
didn’t know what to do
accept my apology
i had everything to lose

i’m fighting this all on my own
every night i hope you’ll come home
i miss you more than you’ll ever know

bones hollowed by mistakes
so frail now that i just might break
should’ve let you have me then
i won’t get that chance again

i’m fighting this all on my own
every night i hope you’ll come home
i love you more than you’ll ever know
i just want you to come back home.

the last night

‘m doing great, I’m doing fine
But a lot has changed in two years’ time
I got a job, moved to school
I was the one who followed all the rules
But then I went and broke some hearts
Picked up the pieces and got a fresh start
By now I’ve got this figured out
Sacrifice it all for what you can’t live without

You’d be proud
Mama told me so
And still I’d like to know—

What’s it like way up high?
Are you made I never said goodbye?
Tell me why you gave up your fight,
Threw in the towel on your last night…

There are times when everything hurts
My body goes numb and it only gets worse
The missing parts, I’m sick with regret
‘Cause you fought the fight I’ll never forget

I was wrong
Mama told me so
I want to forget you
But still I’d like to know—

What’s it like way up high?
Are you mad I never said goodbye?
Tell me why you gave up your fight
Threw in your towel on the last night…

Loss weighs heavy on this girl
So much I swore I’d leave this world
I’m bitter and selfish
There’s nothing I can do to stop this
I’ll open up and let you go
But still I’d like to know—

What’s it like way up high?
Are you mad I never said goodbye?
Just tell me why you gave up your fight…

A white flag waving on your last night.

“anymore”

you reached out on a day in november
used your words and sounded oh so clever
now everyone’s asking ‘bout me and you
and i don’t know if you want someone new

everyone’s pointing to lo-ove
but that can’t be what you’re thinking of

just say, say what you really mean
i can only imagine what i dream
tell me what it is you’re looking for
and if you need me ‘round here anymore

they say the chase is just part of the game
but all the guessin’ is driving me insane
and i never would’ve guessed
your name would glow brighter than the rest

everyone’s pointing to lo-ove
but that can’t be what you’re thinking of

just say, say what you really mean
i can only imagine what i dream
tell me what it is you’re looking for
and if i’m any good for you anymore

what do you do when i’m not by your side
who do you think of every single night
and whose heart do you want to steal
i just want to know how you really feel

just say, say what you really mean
i can only imagine what i dream
tell me what it is you’re looking for
and if you still want me anymore

song for january

The lies just fell from your lips
As you cracked another smile
Your words fell into my hands
As you cracked another heart

All I wanted was to believe in you
And now that your hand’s holding another’s
What do you really expect me to do

So don’t you dare speak
No, don’t you dare speak
Slowly walk away from me
I’m too hurt and I’m too tired
But hey, don’t look at me
…I didn’t start the fire

How could I have been so blind
You were as far as I could see
And maybe time will tell you
You should’ve let things be

Thought it wouldn’t hurt to break the rules
Put your heart in the chest of another
Well didn’t you know I deserved the truth?

So don’t you dare speak
No, don’t you dare speak
Slowly walk away from me
I’m too hurt and I’m too tired
But hey, don’t look at me
…I didn’t start the fire

Caught in a game of chance now
You hid the dice and stole a card
You didn’t think that I would see
But I saw it all come crashing down
Don’t you dare underestimate me

So don’t you dare speak
No, don’t you dare speak
Slowly back the hell away from me

I’m too hurt and I’m too tired
But hey, don’t look at me
…I didn’t start the fire

Don’t look at me
‘Cause I didn’t start the fire

a song about a girl

You and me, we made a crazy plan
You came all the way to Ohio to see me
And you were as beautiful as I believed
Holding hands and sharing beds
You started messing with my head

So come on baby don’t leave just yet
You gave me a week that I’ll never forget
I care for you more than I can say
Come on baby don’t leave me this way

It’s been awhile since that crazy plan
I’m still hung up on that one sweet week
It was as perfect as I could ever believe
Sharing pictures and sending letters
Maybe life without you is for the better

So come on baby don’t leave just yet
You gave me a week that I’ll never forget
I care for you more than I can say
Come on baby don’t leave me this way

Things aren’t the same since you left
I hardly know the days you’ve had
But I think you broke my heart
Yeah, you broke it real bad
Yeah I think I fell in love
So you tell me what comes next

singing…

So come on baby don’t leave me just yet
You gave me a week that I’ll never forget
I love you more than I can say
Please baby baby don’t leave me this way

2/19/11 - a metaphor that actually occurred

Let’s take a drive
We might hit traffic,
But I still wanna try

I bet we still get a few laughs in
Before the sun starts to set

I can show you a good time
This I swear
I’ll be whistlin’ and singin’
Watching the sun glow in your hair

I said okay
I love a good drive
On a beautiful day

I bet the road will twist and turn
But I trust that I won’t get hurt

I do worry, though
This I reveal
The drive seems scary
When your hand’s on the wheel

Driving fast in your prettiest car
You showed me what I wanted to see
Said you could take me real far
And like a fool, I believed